So let’s talk depression & anxiety. I’ve literally been dealing with it for most of my life. I’m sure quite a few of you have too. The crazy part is, I didn’t even realize I was going thru it. I just thought life sucked for everyone really.
I grew up with parents who fought constantly. They eventually got divorced. And long story short, I moved in with my wonderful grandparents. I will make a post about my story later! I just want you guys to know that it’s NORMAL to go thru things.. it’s normal to be down. But when you get stuck there.. that’s where the issue is. There’s a quote that says “you grow thru what you go thru” and that is so sooo true.
To be honest, I didn’t start personal development until about 5 months ago. And I am so thankful I was doing it when I was.
So let’s be raw.. my dad committed suicide about 4 months ago now. If I hadn’t have started this journey I’m not so sure where I’d be. If it weren’t for all of the podcasts and growth, I don’t know if I would have been able to cope in a natural way. I would have kept it bottled inside. Which is even worse.
Yes, you’re probably like what the heck Ashton, how are you not so depressed??
Well here’s the truth! My dad and I have been fairly disconnected for years. Yes, I loved him.. but it’s like this. I haven’t spent more than a day with him since I was 17.. yes, I lost my father, but more than anything I really lost a friend. He hasn’t been a father figure in my life in years. I also know that he is always by my side watching over me.
I strive each and every day to live my life to make him proud. I feel closer to him than I ever did when he was alive & breathing on this planet. I see him in my dreams, and I think about him daily.
I have learned that it’s okay to be yourself. You don’t have to pretend to be a (excuse my language) bitch just so people won’t come talk to you. I never wanted to talk to people. I just wanted to be left alone. I hated explaining how I felt because usually I couldn’t get my thoughts out in words. Which is kind of the reason I write. I have a hard time just… talking. It’s not natural for me yet. I hated being called on in school, presentations literally made me sick.. public speaking is a fear that I’m working on getting over.
That’s where the anxiety comes into play. I’ve been on anxiety meds for about a year now. I was so stressed out at my old job that I literally drove myself into anxiety & stress.
Since switching jobs, eating a little healthier, and choosing to thrive, I have been my best self. I wake up early, I am happy when I wake up, I am stress free, I am mentally stronger, and I have so much clarity on what I want out of my life. And an amazing thing to note: I’ve fully quit taking my anxiety meds!
I was never a goal maker.. let alone a goal accomplisher. I hated goals because I didn’t want to fail myself & be more depressed.
Y’all, these 3 steps I do daily (I can share more about this later, too), on top of my personal development journey — it’s changed my life. I am a completely different person than I was just 5 months ago. I am happy. I am peaceful. I’m not stressed. I’m not as moody.
So since I never liked to make goals, I am going to declare them here, publicly. I am thankful that I will be able to quit my full time job in 6 months. I will be working out & working on my physical self along with my mental self. & I will buy a house next year.
I challenge you to make some short term & long term goals for yourself. Write them down. Make a vision board!
If you’re just wanting someone to talk to, I’m here just connect with me. If you’re wanting more info on what I’m doing or my 3 steps, message me. If you want to see more posts like this, let me know in the comments. I’m working on being more open and real with you guys.